I got into the car and drove with a smile on my face. I can’t really remember how long it took me, but it felt like I had been gone for years. I can’t wait to see my handsome bobo and my Anthony. God gave him to me as a gift from above. I can’t believe I’ve missed the two most important men in my life. Anthony should be clocking 20 very soon. I’m so glad he’ll be writing JAMB very soon and laughing into the university.

As I drove, I remembered how God gave me my Anthony after mummy showed my husband and I hell. Mummy Abayomi can be dramatic when she’s dealing with her girls.

I had been married to my husband for 2 years and there was no baby. We planned to give birth to our son immediately we got married. It was a plan we both agreed on, so we can raise the child as young couples. Besides, I come from a dramatic family who will not stop looking at my tommy expecting a baby there.


After all, God spoke about it and gave us the name of the child. All we had to do was to get married and bring the child into the world. For two good years, there was no baby. We both thought it was God telling us it wasn’t yet time and got busy with some other activities.

To be honest, my first year as a married christian lady was cold. I used to be on f!re and fellowship with the Holy Ghost consistently. Even the day I was supposed to get married, I was so close to God that the Holy Ghost himself gave me fatherly blessings in my room.


That was how close we both were. But immediately I got married, I started becoming cold. First, I needed time to recover from my first cplation encounter. For the first time in a long time, I slept instead of observing my quiet time. Mummy told me to use hot water on myself. She told me I was reacting to it because it was my first time.

Well, day one and day two of not fellowshipping with the Holy Spirit turned into a month. And a month turned into a year. My Bobo tried his best to get me back to how I used to be, but the struggle was too much.

Soon, my coldness began to affect him. I was more interested in spending time with the TV and social media. Whatever I could spend time with that wasn’t prayer. Once you mention, let’s pray! A sudden weakness would fall on me.

I was struggling to pray. I missed my old self. All what it took for Satan to activate spiritual coldness in my life was just two days holiday. I knew I had to open up to mummy, but I felt she would be so disappointed to find me in such a spiritually cold state. I was her pride! Her prayer machine! I could pray for long and not get tired. But right now, I f0rced myself to get to 30 minutes.

I needed help, but I wasn’t ready to expose my sin to my mentor. I kept telling myself I’ll work on it. But the more I tried, the more I failed. That’s how I ended up wasting 2 years of my life, until God showed me mercy.


I was about going shopping for dinner, when mummy called. she told me to come over. I did without saying a word in protest.

“Susan, how are you?” immediately I arrived and gave me a hvg.

“I’m doing good mum!”

“I can see your Holy Ghost bobo is taking care of you!”

“Yes oooo! He’s doing an incredible job.

“Haaaaaaaa! Susan, why are you cold?” Mummy asked, giving me a questioning look.

“I hgged you and instead of feeling that f!re you carry, I felt coldness. What happened to your spiritual altar?” She asked further.

I knew I have been caught. What I had successfully hidden for the past two years was about to be revealed. I didn’t know where to start explaining myself, but I had to start from somewhere.

I gave mommy that look of apology and threw her my downcast eyes.

“Mummy I’m sorry!”

“Wait! Before you start your rounds of apology, I would like to find out. When was the last time you observed your quiet time?”


This was the question I seriously wanted to avoid. Here it was, stamped on my question paper as question number one.
It’s almost took me 40 seconds to answer.

“You can’t talk?” Mummy asked.

“I’m sorry ma! I have disappointed you. I can’t remember the last time I had fellowship with the Holy Spirit. I have seriously tried my best to bounce back to where I used to be before, but it’s not working.”

“And you never bothered telling me, right?”

“I didn’t want to disturb you!”

“Yes! Thanks for being a considerate daughter. But Satan has been disturbing your life and your marriage, right?”

“I’m sorry ma!”

“Don’t tell me that tr@sh. To say I am disappointed in you is an understatement. What is seriously p@ining me right now is the fact that a dem0n with one hand and one leg is tying your womb and you are yet to know.”

It’s obvious mommy had just dropped a b0mb. I was sh0cked by what I heard. Let me get what she said. Did she say that a dem0n with one hand and one leg was tying my womb? I thought the delay in my having a child, had a lot to do with God’s timing?


“Not every delay in childbirth was caused by God. There are so many couples thinking the reason why they’re experiencing delay having babies, has something to do with God, but it never did,” Mommy answered as though she could read my mind.

“You’re thinking God cause the delay in having Anthony, but he’s not the one. There are ancestral powers that stood in your way of having children. The Susan I know would have combated them and gotten her baby, but we have a spiritual cold Susan to deal with. I can’t believe you choose to become spiritually cold after getting married. It was just as if you were waiting for God to settle you maritally, so you can abandon him.”

“No ma!” I wept as I fell down on my knees.

“I tried my best to bounce back but it wasn’t working.”

“And closing your mouth against your destiny was the best way to help yourself bounce back?”

“You were so busy and I didn’t want to bother you!”

“And the dev!l became busy with destr0ying your marriage slowing down God’s purposes for you! As I am talking to you right now, your son is supposed to be two years old. But he’s yet to be born.

You close your mouth against your destiny, because you allowed the dev!l to deceive you. No matter how busy your mentor may be you are supposed to submit your struggles to her. I was boasting in my heart that you are doing well spiritually, not knowing you and your husband were busy decieving me.


How do you expect to prosper when you cover your sin?”

“I’m sorry ma! Please forgive me!”

“When Satan is set to destr0y a Christian marriage, he ensures the wife is spiritually cold. If you check your Bible very well, in order for the dev!l to take Adam down, he went after Eve.

When he wanted to get Abraham to miss it in his destiny, he went for Sarah. God never planned for Ishmael. It was all the working of the dev!l.

When Satan wanted to bring Samson down, he went after his woman.

The Bible says, a wise woman builds her house, but the f0olish would tear it down with her hands. There’s a connection between the woman and the Christian home that once you get the woman, you’ve gotten the home.

Get your bible and open to the book of Genesis 3:13.”

I quickly opened the bible app on my phone and read.

“And the LORD God said unto the woman, What is this that thou hast done? And the woman said, The serpent beguiled me, and I did eat.


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